Hello all! I've missed our little nook of the blogging world since our silence! Life seems to change at the most unexpected times, doesn't it? You seem to be getting a pattern going of sorts and then crash! something in your life is no longer present and it leaves you so breathless you feel as though life it's self is no longer a joy to live. The unforeseen and learning contentment is what I want to expound on today.
I'm not just writing today to give you all a pep talk. But to encourage you on your way in this life from my own life happenings. There are many of us who seem to be living merry little happy-go-lucky lives while some happen to be living very much less than that. They see "us" and think we've never had a day of discontentment in our lives before. We tell them it is indeed not so, but until you really hear someone's story, no matter how silly they know they sound, it's hard to believe when life just seems to be in such order for some. How wrong that really is to think.
A few events in my life of late have taken their toll on me. Yup, I'm here to say my life is not perfect y'all and I too face times of uncertainty and uncalled for fear.
Our beloved church group broke up for differing reasons. The heartache of pushing through such a time is tasking to say the least. Though we still are able to see the families that resided with us each Sabbath, at differing gatherings, the Lord's Day was/is still not the same for me or my family. I've never been one to get down on something for long (getting really depressed over an issue) so I just cried my bucket of remorseful tears over the matter and let it go.
My part time nannying job was slowly taking over my life until three weeks ago when I finally got up enough courage to tell the family that the 30+ hours a week was not going to be able to continue. I'll probably write more on this one day soon, but I can not even begin to describe how much anxiety I had over "quitting". It was hard. Really hard. I love kids, I don't want to be a girl just hanging around waiting to get married, so why did I feel so strongly about giving it up? It was such a perfect fit! The truth is (besides having very little at home time) I didn't want to. I didn't want to give it up, not only having to face telling the desperately-in-need-of- help family was not the only issue. I felt for a period of time that I was were I needed to be and that that was the reason for my anxiety over the matter. But may that have been true at that time or not, I fought both sides of the coin for weeks. I slowly came to realize that God was telling me I was not spending my time wisely, not in what He wanted me to. So with all my fears of having the hard talk with the couple and having free time on my hands "I knew not to do with" (Ha ha) I gave that up too. (For right now I'm helping a couple afternoons a week only. ;)
A full day and a half passed between making that long anticipated switch till things began to fall apart with my cleaning job. (I had been working both jobs for about four months now.) I'll just convey that the husband (of the couple whose business it was) was less than as stellar as we had believed him to be. Obviously working through this was no walk in the park. His wife had/has become a very close and dear friend to me. Losing her company (at least for the time being) was a sword in my side that continues to ache. Once again something had been taken from me that I'd fallen in love with.
What I'd been was literally too busy to realize was that I had my priorities too far spread and my quite time with the Lord was only something I could vaguely bring to mind.
This does not go to say that I have come to find out each reason for the things I spoke of; why they have happened. I have though already come to see a few, but I am expectant to see what other things God brings out of each situation.
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus/Yeshua Messiah our Lord. Romans 8:38,39
Knowing these things is one thing, living them out in your thoughts and daily life is another. It's hard to have your life be changed in a way you were not expecting or wanting to see happen. I'm not writing in past tense y'all. I'm still right in the midst of it all. My days have seemed kind of amiss with so much change in a short amount of time. So being content even with everything still going on has been my next hurdle to jump.
But godliness with contentment is great gain. 1 Timothy 6:6
Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. Philippians 4:11
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Hebrews 13:5
Wherefore comfort yourselves together, and edify one another, even as also ye do.
1 Thessalonians 5:11
P.S. I have a wonderful friend to thank who very unexpectedly was there for me through these phenomenons in my life. God's ways are always higher than ours. You know who you are. Thanks for everything.
The elder sister & writer